Dont Bother Trying To Explain Angel

just kiss me one last time

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 21:16:10 GMT

empty feilds move me so much more than rooms filled up with friends, the way the trees look dead, remind me theirs so much more to live than living, and maybe giving ups not bad but part of letting go of you.

RIP Lauren...1/12/04
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stat class:
lucas: cunt
me: penis
lucas: vigina
me: anus
simone: did u just say my name?

HAHAHHA OMG SIMONE THAT WAS JUST TOO FUNNY

inevitablely the worst day

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 02:27:38 GMT

thanks ry ry and mitch

mutiny three: i love and miss you too angel

guess i miss you a little bit more now huh Dave? I love you forever and always!!

everything beautiful dies -- RIP DAVE 1/11/04

I MISS YOU BUDDY! some day well meet again. ill b the one w/ the one w/ my emo rock and your pink balloons. awwww that was cute u gotta admit. haha

this is what i call a Tragedy, theres a reason ur not here with me

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 01:29:27 GMT

really upset all day. tomorrow itll b one year since dave... i do miss you dave. i hope u know that. ill b down here w/ every1 2morrow letting go of the ballons. im sorry i never made it the 1st time around. i didnt know what 2 do with myself. it all was so sudden. it seemed so sureal.

highlights of the day
nick B in health makeing fun of a certain some1. i <3 nick.
english: all the boys against me. (in a funny way) noah ur "sweet" haha and i dunno i dont think he is.
ryan swinging by b4 practice 2 suprise me w/ flowers. thanks soooo much ryan. that ment sooo much 2 me. ur adorable!!! adn thanks for agreeing 2 come w/ me 2morrow. i love you.

ryan <3

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 04:21:41 GMT

well set bonfires and pretend its the 4th of july... it was really romantic sorry hahah april!!!

funniest story ive ever heard... so get this...
huge party at ryans house. ryan and this super hot chick r haveing hot sex next 2 his bonfire. like rough sex. so he throws her shirt in the air. and it lands in the bonfire. and she had 2 go back 2 the party w/o a shirt on. HAHAHAHAHAHHA TAHS FUCKING GREAT. tops mine by 93293023902. i love u ryan!

she wants to go home, nobodys home to dry her eyes

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 19:19:22 GMT

I’m living a lie

When I’m alone
I feel so much better
And when I’m around you
I don’t feel together
It doesn’t feel right at all
Together
Together we’ve built a wall
Together
Holding hands we’ll fall
Hands we’ll fall

This has gone on so long
I realize that I need
Something good to rely on
Something for me

for my someone specail.....

shes lost inside

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 16:30:45 GMT

went white castleing w/ meg fun stuff. went 2 see dominic. bailey is getting w/ titty tot 2nite. woah suprise. had a fun lil chat w/ dominic in the car. he was so stoned. haha. AND DOM I KNEW IT WAS BAILEY ON THE PHONE W/ ME!! u losers. sry 2 hear about ur mom dominic. hope things get better. all plans got cancled so i was home till 8 pigging out and watching tv. than cris came over 2 brighten my day. went online. had interesting convos. cris u make me BLUSH! i love/hate u. when that was over adn done w/. when in doubt go 2 the randoplh diner. met up w/ jess and elysse. met a porn star. she was werid/funny. jess took pics w/ her. shoved her head in2 her boobs. very nice. morgan was there w/ geoff but he left b4 i got 2 see him. turns out ive known him all along so that doenst matter. haha wow im a dufas. met up w/ brandon pnut monti. got a huge table for alllll of us in the party section. party on. starting stuffing all sorts of things down jess's boobs. a mom came up 2 her and said "put those away. i have a daughter that age, so i can say that" funniest thing ever. justin and sweata showed up and kept stareing at me. i wanted 2 punch them in the face. w/e though. had enough drama for one week dont need nemore. but i coulda soo taken them haha. went driving up and down 10. met some werid ass mexicans at a light. i speed off (they cant speed bc they a illegal) haha so they never caught up w/ us. got home ran up the stairs and fell. god my stairs hate me. haha i always fall runnin up them.!! cris fell down laughing at me. thank you. best friends. kerri come over at 11 30ish 2 chill. she had a great time at her sophmore sweet 16 haha. u sophmore. every1 left...i went 2 bed...

dont cry let her die slowly she never loved you anyway

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 00:44:12 GMT

I LOVE LIZ WALDRON!!!! u make my day! kill that bitch!!!! pop her in her pop belly and pull her back hairs out through her stomach (hand motion)

great time w/ matt(my lover) in the library. rrrr baby.

kerri came over watched napolean. goddd. (should i say alex and phill) hahaha RUNNNN haha were learning that dance.

ryan bailey!!! dominic!!! phone call!!! haha lock me in my house. yeah tahs smart!!! kerri is he worth it?? hahahhahahahahahahha

This photograph is proof

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 18:41:12 GMT

1st pd.-- ur amazing I <3 u!! those 2 minutes can last me 2 days. <33

HALF DAY BITCHES!!!

later that night--- RYAN BAILEY CALLED!omg havent talked 2 him since the car incident. haha which i loved btw! <3 god ur crazy bailey! but yeah lets call me 2 hang on the worst night possible at 11:30 yeah thatll happen...

kerri R U CRAZY?? dominic!!! PLZ GOD NO! hahaha ps: cris says KY jelly is on sale. hahaha

im a hazord to myself

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 03:50:46 GMT

so i cut my middle finger nail on my left hand off w/ a razor 2day cuase im skilled. and than i cut my right hand middle and pointer finger with a knife cause im even more skilled...
u know i like it rough... and thats all i gotta say about that

ryan had the best answer but ben made my night!!
BER67: I'm gonna get you a super sexy man-whore riding on top of a beautiful miniature pony, pulling a carriage filled with roses, chocolate, little puppy dogs, and 13 and a half million dollars
BER67: and a hat

AND THAN....
BER67: apparently I'm lost, and usually when you are lost, it's not normal to know where you are. Therefore, If I knew where I was, I wouldn't be lost. did you know that the word lost backwards is tsol. did you know that racecar is the same forwards and backwards. God I love to just ramble on. did you know there's a song by Led Zeppelin called Ramble On, and in that song there is an alliteration to Lord Of The Rings. It says something about Golem, and in the second Lord of the Rings book, we discover that Golems name used to be Smiegel. "The more you know"

drama drama drama

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 00:45:10 GMT

so much DRAMA in the LBC its kinda hard being Snoop D O double G.....

and i could care less.....

the truth will prevail and when u realize u were wrong i hope u feel like shit cause itll never b the same again....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 04:03:12 GMT

i decided to start up this journal again just bc of all the complaints.... and pure bordem

MOTHER OF GOD LAST NITE WAS GLORIOUS!!! kerri y is it that when all plans fail we do the craziest shit? words can not explain last nite. decided to take a road trip 2 see dom rod and the boysss down at the shore. w/ our handy dandy check list in hand:((climb a tree, shovel snow, marriage proposal, pine incence, midnight kiss))...but no directions. but dont panic there is a war in tiawan!! driving watching fireworks not the road, perfect beginging 2 the night dont ya think? and we were on our way. great times on the parkway blasting 80's music. "i want you to suck my lolipop" "blow my wistle bitch" sweet. no idea where we were going but oh were we going. got there, well kinda. got 2 the 7 11. circled that for about an hour couldnt find the street for the life of us. turned out bc it was the wrg 7 11. haha rodney and dom came 2 pick us up. aww thank god ccause we woulda never found it. kerri rolled up in2 the diveway and parked in a tree. (check it off) got 2 the party OMG HOT BOYS GALORE. too bad there was hot girls too. we didnt stand a chance. it was madd shady. dom looked amaizng. dan was there :) but no jim. zeus remembered me! hahaha omgggg hahah omg!!! the party kept getting more and more shady so we peaced that shit soo fast. hahah got on the parkway. got lost on the parkway there are no signs for 24!!! went 2 belville, the oranges, random ghettos and so much more. adn fianlly took the exit off in union. (my bright idea bc it said morristown WRG MORRISTOWN) found a CVS w/ a drive thu pharmacy. hmm ud think it was a good thing.. too bad the drive thu led in2 this back ally w/ dumpsters and shit. so scary. went in2 CVS where the guy thought we were drunk casue we didnt know where we wanted 2 go. casue he didnt know where randoph was. but he got us on2 24. and we were home soon enough to toast the night away w/ home made baileys. yum. the boys were sooo happy 2 see us. kicked eddies ass in CLO not me, kerri did. stayed up talking 2 the boys till 5 in the morning. orgy on my bed.

shaun comes home and wakes me up w/ a glass of water. ohh but did i get him back. i think i won that war. i got him w/ some shimmer lotion plus water. what now punk. ur soo whipped!

E-P-I-C-!-!-!

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 03:02:22 GMT

10/29
kerr came over, made 3 boxes of jello shots! XTREAM green, lime, mystery rasberry. most amaizng things ever. ran errands, for about 2 hours. what a work out. got 2 kerri like 2 min b4 thr party was supposed 2 start. most an EPIC nite. most random party ever! most embarassing momenets ever. thank god i dont remember them, bc i wasnt even coherent at that point. lol just falling 2 the ground crying bc all the jello shots were gone. hahah classic. kerri callin the cops on her own party. thas going down in history. kerri pll will b talkin bout ur party for years 2 come. and theyll remember u by "oh yeah that dumbass who accidentlly dialed the cops fm her own cell phone as shes behind her shed getting high." hahah good one babe. stayin awake till 4 30 dont even know what happend but it was epic. kerri and cris stripping down 2 nothingness. haha kerri flashing me. figures the one thing i remember fm the nite b4 is kerris boob.. haha thanks. cris singing "papa smurf lick that ass" and "madaline ur so fine" what the fuck?? speaking of what the fuck. that random kid don. "what the fuck" he made my nite... i think. hahahah. no i lied. eddie made my night. he was soo fucked up. 5 grams. whatever makes u happy eddie.. haha oh picking up chris me drunk driving. kerri high navigateing. kerri pokes me in the eye as if im not haveing enough trouble seeing. then tries 2 help but punches me in the mouth adn i start 2 bleed. and chris doesnt come out for an hour. poppin squats in front of deer. stayin awake talkin 2 matt all nite. good times. basiclly it went exactlly as planned, drunk high and memorable!! well i donno about memorable.. mostlly cause i dont remember nehting. but if i did remember, oh it was MEMORABLE indeed. and im spent. lucas's profile.... 10/29..good times at kerris party... resh crying when all the jello shots were gone... hahahaha awsome dude. thanks lucas.

10/30 mischeif nite
when in doubt go 2 acme. hung out at acme for about an hour. josh came by " man last nite u guys were so drunk. you were drunk, u were drunk, u were gone!, u.. i donno what the hell happend 2 you" hahahha thank u josh. brad, rannndomm. TP a bunch of houses. meg me and kerr. got a certain bitches house. it was EPIC! "i wanted 2 write slut on her driveway but all i got was the S out" "omg we should do it everyweekend, and add a new letter" hahha the boys got a party!!!!!!! crazy motehrs. got caught by a certain group of ppl. damn it. i really wanted 2 get his house. really pissed at some1 for blowing us off.
MTRNKP22: not really we just grabbed pumpkins and threw them on porches and random stuff like that, i acutally got hurt, we grabbed a giant hockey goal and threw it in the trees but it bounced back and nailed me in the face it hurts so bad. good job matt.

10/31
meg u crazy bitch. went back 2 the bitches house for round two. got bleach thrown at her car. so meg ran the bitch off the road. ur crazy!!! crazy i say! craaazy!

CODY MARRY ME!

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 19:18:47 GMT

http://www.imagestation.com/mypictures/inbox/view.html?album_id=4287403901&id=4175126055&url=http%3A//www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid114/p612e6922fe8f84bc2d20a446a3e54697/f8db5e27.jpg&caption=cody

cody was on MTV!! omg i missssss him! i <333333 you cody!!!!! CODY IS GORGOUS!

matt ur SEXYYYY as hell too... but i dunno its cody and hes epic!!!!!

hope he keeps ur eyes closed tightly

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 00:24:30 GMT

so i ripped my pants today! hahaha tahnkkk uuuu ressshhh. soo funnyyy. i cant get over it. kumiee was raped in the parking lot. he liked it! ohhhh sexxxx me kumie! kummie getts ridden more than me. damn that lucky bastard. hes takeing my men. haha
friday nite will be EPICCCC!!

SMAKT247: every1 in we got 2 lol party vans @ 2 am lol
SMAKT247: if we go down we go down drunk high and havin fun lol
^ smartest thing ive heard in a long time!

getting kerri fucked up so she can get raped. u can thank the grasshopper later.

SMAKT247: i'll just b like chris grab my boobs lol
^ kerr dont make me underestimate the size of ur balls... that would b depressing

in memory of justin "welcome 2 kerris Ds" BOOB! PS. id like 2 see some cock smack action!

YEAH I BET I BET!

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 02:45:25 GMT

mock election day went amazning. 600 something kids. thas more than 60% turn out. thats SUPER! i was in awe. i couldnt belive so many kids would actully get off their butts and vote. im so proud of all of u!! meg i still cant belive she said that. thas so dick!! im so mad at her. she shoulda just told me, so i could kick the crap out of her. ugh soooo so sooo dick!!! as much as i love her. sooo DICK! and liz too. soo dick, plz ruin my life! w/e friday will make up 4 it. (hopefully)silly. kerr the master plan WILL work. this is the master of master plans. ill work on the kid 4 ya. no worries i got ur back. got all emotional in engligh 2day. rannndom. tackled in the parking lot. heh. it was SUPER! kerrr ur amaizng!

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 02:41:33 GMT

lex: no i just didnt know if u were ballsy enough 2 do it
me: dont ever underestimate the size of my balls
wow hahaha

oh kerr bear... we need the master of master plans 4 this one.... damn the shy ones....they make things so difficult

as im gasping for air, you are my oxygen alone

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 22:06:04 GMT

taboo friday!
meg: resh its what u had last week
me: oh that helps
meg: the things taht boys give 2 girls and u had trouble getting rid of
me: HICKYYYSS!!!!
ms B: omg too much information !!!!
hahahah thannnnnkkk youuuuuuu meggggg!!! embarass me some more next time <3

pep ralley omg fun! lost my voice! whos ur daddy? <-- best cheer ever! spirt fingers. and all u kids that cut the pep rally GAY GAY GAY! <--- some literally? lol

back 2 kerr house for the 1st time in 2 months holy shit. orgy on the bed! hahah awsome. maria back in action. maria ur alter ego soo hot. "the phone number u wrote on my but w/ lipstick... yeah it was wrg" when r u getting deported? i <3 maria! Kerri "i cant grab ur ass, so ill grab mine" hahah matt i miss u all up in my boobs! haha. game=cold. saw ryan there <3 dinner after AMAZING! every1 was there. olegs after holy shit randdddommm. cris "were not with them"
kerri calls... convo
her: yes
kerri: is ... there?
her: no and dont call this number again.... click
damn u PSYCHO!!!! wowwwwww funny shit made my nite
PC he came 2 me :)

friday nite: cried myself 2 sleep. so upset. 5 + 6 = 12 i swear!!! i was in denial. the calculator it was wrg!!! i cant belive this. i felt as though i was walking on shattered glass of broken dreams. (so emo damn) sry 4 hanging up on u. (u are my oxygen alone.) i loveee you more than nehitng. u always know what 2 say. im so sorry if i dissapointed u. i tried my best :( god i love you!!! if im not w/ u next year, i dont know what ill do w/ myself. i hope ur right. thanks 4 having faith in me.

eric and mike calling me at 8 in the morning. u guys r sooo immature! wow growww up. mayb id play along a couple hours later. mike ur 21, y would i want u. uve done nothing w/ ur life. ur a loser not 2 mention a HUGEEE druggie. stop calling me!!

sat nite: work w/ mellisa. how i miss that girl! meg and tatts thanks 4 stoppin by. sry i couldnt hang longer but i had plans! <3 u girls. hope u had fun at mike belmonties w/o me

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 01:39:32 GMT

megans sorry attempt:

me: omg that girl is sooooo annnoying!!! shes such a ditz
meg: i know! she makes me wanna.... she makes me wanna... put up a sound barrier!!!
me:................ r......u........serious???? thas the best u could come up w/

meg u r so cute! hahaha u were tryin so hard too. hahah thas so adorable

death day 2day mayb 2morrow? who knows.... well find out.... damn it...
ithica w/ dan this weekend? awsome awosme!

FUCKING AMAIZNG NIGHTTTT

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 02:47:57 GMT

whooppp whoop!! GO GO GO reddd soxxxxxxxxxxx!!! seniors kick ass! we won again. hmmm junior girls tie ur belts a lil tighter next time... dont even try 2 say it was rigged! we ddnt have our belts tied. gloria is gonna get her ass kicked tomorrow. wayy 2 beat on a senior chick( even though it was fucking awosme) ur gonna get ur ass kicked. wayyy to beeee. all u senior girls kick butt! whoop whoop! hung w/ some chill asss kids. specailly morgan. shes cool as shit! ur pretty too!! in the dug out... hahahhahah watch the lights! oh man. good times good times. i missed u cris... party at my house on a weekday awosmeeee yooo!!! whoop whoop! gonna go party. oh and the night gets better and better. my bro got me a gift certificate to FCUK!! whoop whoop!!! adn dan is amaizng!! DHemm84: harold and kumar is awesome fuck yeahhhhhhh thas meeee kumarr!!!!

..........

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 00:26:33 GMT

.............. hmmm...... wow....... thass alll i have to say about 2day...

spirit week

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 19:52:38 GMT

PJ day! weee sporting my sponge bob!! soooo comffffyy! ryan was soooo cute 2day. i wanted 2 just rape him. i <3 ryan!! almost got caught cheating on vocab phew *knock on wood*. watching home videos of justin me and kerri. awwww soo cute! i miss him!! i never knew how much i missed him till i watched it. good times. too bad i cant see him ever again :( o well. "reshmas Ds" hahah you boob!
talked to scottie.. its offical dave looks BUSSTEDDD! tear. never thought the day would come...
talkd to brendon online.... wow thas kinda depressing... interestinglly enough i felt alot better after i talked to him. he made my self esteem rise soo much!

HAROLD AND KUMAR go to.....the mall???

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 04:34:12 GMT

mall.... bad karma.. knock on wood. amaizng stuff though... lovin it. love u meg for the ideassssss. made spirt week tee shirts. omg sooo amazing. soo excited 2 wear them. went 2 taco bell. so good. bad karma again. damn it.

PaNda1017: =-Oscandalous!
explians the night in one word...

funniest day!

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 12:52:12 GMT

taboo in ms Bs class
shanna: DOUG BOCHINO HAS A REALLLLY BIG ONE!
the class: (shock)fucking cracking up
ms b: wow shanna too much information
shanna: omg no i didnt mean it like that, he keeps it in his basement
the class: tearing on the floor laughing hahahhaha
shanna: embarassed out of her mind
the word was watch dog...

jess: (adressing her friend) uve been this 4 times!!
friend: PREGNANT!!
jess: yup nicee!
wow hahhaha

meg i <3 u. thanks 4 the car!!! hahah soooo cute!! mwah babe!

DQ cris brought me nachos Mmmm yummmmmm. and then she spent 1 and 40 min at DQ just lauhging it up w/ me. oh man good times!! HIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE. and then he whipped out his giutar. omg i thought u were gonna say he whipped out his penis! BAhahaha

kim and kristin.... hmmm embarassing moment w/ zach watson... tahnkkkkkk youuuu girllllsss.... sry zach! haha

meg came by at 11 is and we hung 4 a while. got dave all messy. poooor davie. and PS im soo jealous of the frame. i want a bf now. i hate u meg !!

interesting day!!!

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 02:52:54 GMT

omg what a day. caster asking every1 about it. even mr moen!!!!! y would moen know u dumbass. now moen thinks im a slut thanksss. and i only told "him" cuase he doesnt know ne1. thanks 4 backing me up burky! ass. haha jk <3

crazy night at the diner! omgggg i cant belive that happend! wowwwwwwwwwwww cant belive. im scared.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 03:08:57 GMT

dq very interesting..... wowwwwww